give up, you're a sham, go get a degree in business or something and hope to work in cubicle all day. marry the first women you see. hope to have a kid you can force to do some sport or activity so that he hates himself, but you can feel redeemed as a human being.

that's roughly my mental process at about 10:30 a.m. today.


actually my lesson wasn't that bad. i learned a whole shit load.
i don't think i've ever met a ~5'6" <140 pound lady as intimidating as her.



I coulda saw katy today.


i didn't though. I don't think it would have went very well, I still want her too bad.

i see her online and i feel like i should talk to her, but I also feel like there'd be nothing to talk about. maybe i should call her, force us into some type of conversation.








like she would pick up.




i am eligable for 113 scholarships according to some site that is basically the google of free money.

and i am going to apply for every fucking dollar i can bitches.